After I quit smoking I doubled down on the workouts. And of course heavy lifting makes you hungry! So I was feeding pretty regularly. Then I got into the habit of forthmeal.
You know, that meal at 10.30 or so? That was supposed to be just a snack but turned into a meal? It can’t be just me…
Even though it was generally a healthy meal, it’s still three or four hundred calories I don’t need at a time I don’t need it. Then I sprained my wrist and had to stop with the weights for a couple weeks, and on came seven or eight pounds.
I started working out again but ate like a damned demon – and ate a good bit of junk, too. Add a couple more pounds on. I was literally eating when I KNEW I wasn’t hungry. I don’t know why.
And now here I am. I used to be such a nice clean eater. Sigh. Today is my fourth day of clean eating and no forthmeal and I feel like I’m starving. I caved last night and went to make a pizza on a whole wheat pita and was only saved by the fact that my pitas were moldy, so I had a couple spoon fulls of light Kefir cheese.
Slowly slowly, we learn and grow every day – all you can do is walk away with the lessons learned and a new habit to form. It will take a few weeks to get back into this habit and feel good for it – that’s the trick, I have to remember how damned GOOD I felt eating clean.
I’ve also tossed the Truvia (fake sugar) and bought some raw Stevia. Little steps!
(I lost one pound, hahahaha)